Today Carlos and I finalized the design we made for Sylvia’s final urn. He has been working on it for months and it is coming to the last couple details before it gets brought home and we will transfer her ashes from the urn she is currently in to this new one. Both urns are beautiful, but for her to be resting inside one that her daddy made her is so amazing, so special and so heartbreaking. 

Today is also Halloween. Last year at this time Carlos and I were in Seattle trick-or-treating with my sister, brother-in-law and nephew. My sister was pregnant with my niece and I imagine Sylvia was conceived within that week or the following week. Today will be the first of many holidays that are vastly different than we anticipated. I would have still been on maternity leave and we were planning for her to be a skunk for Halloween. I imagine we would have been in Seattle again this year for her to be trick-or-treating with her cousins. My nephew will be Jupiter and my niece is dressing as an astronaut. A little skunk would have made for such funny pictures.

Sylvia, I am so sorry you aren’t here. Happy Halloween my little angel. You are so loved and so missed.